All By Myself

So the story started 18years ago...that was the time I was born...My family members were mom , dad and me.Everything seems so beautiful.If u met us at that time,u will think we're just like the other family out there who is gonna build a happy family..yes we might..Until then , 7 months after i was born..a tragedy happened that is gonna change my whole life forever(it did).My dad died.Everything was falling apart after that..8 years later ,I went to school like the other children..But what was different between me and them is that i don't have a dad to wait for me after school dismissed.I remembered every time teachers asked about family members ,what is your dad occupation ,what is his name ..i get so upset afterthat ...And believe it or not , some schoolmates started to take advantage of me and saying words like "u dont have a dad? , ur mom pick u from the rubbish , pity orphan!" Of course i was so upset about this...how can u asked a 8 years old kid to take this kinda pressure all by himself. But i never tell my mom what happened to me in school..i will just say i had fun in school with my schoolmates..and i still remembered i can see the sign of relief in her eyes. There is something special about me...something that tells me not to make mom worry anymore. i never tell anyone what happened to me...if u know me...u will just think that i m a happy person with a peace of mind.But i ain't.

Growing up , as a kid , I learned a lot in my life. I handled most things all by myself. Slowly, i realised that i had this strong feelings over man. I started to have crush here and there and ended up frustrated as i m the kind of person who never take the initiative to tell people how i felt.Life goes on. I had a lot of friends.They are really good person .But even though i m surrounded by a billions of them i will still feel lonely. i had been praying to GOD. So that He can send me someone special..someone who will be there for me until the end of the world(not sure how to put that in words). i waited and waited so long.Everynight i m telling myself that i m gonna meet him tomorrow. have a little faith. have a little patience. But all i can say is..i m tired of waiting and searching. Everyone ends up to be a mistake to me.(i never meet any real PLU person in my life,i had been chatting with them sometimes..but never really wanna meet them bcos of what they want(u know) And that's not what i want.And the story continued with the same thing happened .

Lonely E.S.

PS: Want to feel what i feel at the moment? close your eyes and listen to the song..feel the lyrics along..and maybe u will get a little of what i feel right now...thx