Start Of Something New

G'day Folks! Yes I m back for more.....

Here I m , back again , since i neglected this blog for 2 weeks.

As u can see the big title ..u know there are many new things happened in these 2 weeks.

Let's talk about D 1st...

As always we still have good conversation in MSN...he was sick that day...i wanted to go to his place to take care of him so much...but he said he can manage it...So the next day i did the same thing..waiting for him in front of my laptop wondering if he gets any better...didnt text bcos mayb he is sleeping.And late at night he was in msn..told me he went out for movie with a guy he met on PR that eventually became his bf i guess(fall in love is easy but to forget someone is really hard)...yes ,a bit disappointed ,my worry was unnecessary..i m making myself a fool lol....But anyway , life goes on...i m glad he is happy with his new bf ...One thing disappoint me is that we never talk that much anymore and he didnt online that much(he used to online everyday)..thats what i told u guys...will he treat me like the way he did(BFF) when he gets a bf? So , now i got the answer hehe...Anyway , i wish him all the best for his love life...

Continue in my list is Z(singapore)

Z is a Singaporean.Athletic build. An arab-pakistani-chinese mixed.We met each other on the PR(dating site) as he is coming to KL for 2days. The 1st day he was in KL , he invited me to this 'OB' club in town. He said i can sleep with him in the hotel and he can hug me when i sleep.He added he wont do anything to me.But too bad ,when he messaged me was around 11.30pm .SO there was no train anymore.Plus, i dont drive. So we never met.Anyway we chatted on Msn and started to know each other a little bit better...He is a cool guy and has a good personality.He said he is coming to KL in late november to visit me. So , as always ,we still chat on msn and really had good conversations together.Can't wait to see him soon.

Next is another Z(Malaysian)

Z is mixed race too.(Don't know why i always have fate with mixed race guys lol)

We also met on PR and we chat on Msn . One fine day , i decided to meet him in person to hangout with him. So , at 8pm i waited for the bus and went there by train.I reach at his place's train station at about 10pm(yes,far and i waited for the F bus for 1 hour.)So , he came to pick me up and we went for supper around his house with his friends which i later found out was gay also (bad gaydar lol) . Anyway i found that Z(malaysian) has a great sense of humor, After we had our supper, he sent his friends back home and we went to the town to met his other friends. Little did i know that the place we met his friends was just a few steps from the 'BB' club which is a famous one in town. We didn't stay long as he told his friends i m tired and need to go home(thanks Z) .Be4 we went off , he hugged his friends. Which, i think is very friendly and loving.Anyway,It was my very 1st day seeing the gay life and meeting gay people.Yes , i get shocked of something but i think i will get used to it one day. We went home and i got into his room.Took shower(alone,not together ok!).Listen to some great music.And then we both lying in the bed. Talking very personal stuff and i was very comfortable that day(i dont share much about my thing with other people).So , he hugged me and kissed me on the forehead and cheek(yes , my 1st time) He told me he cares for me and he understands all bcos he went through what i m going through right now. I was very pleased and grateful.I hold his face and kissed him on his face too.(i caused him pain as i didnt realise my finger nails hurt him and felt so guilty about it.)The conversation carried on.And that night ,i slept in his arms peacefully.(again , my 1st time) The next day i woke up at 9am.Hugged him from the back as he is still sleeping.After that , he sent me to train station as he has to go to campus to do his assignments.So that was it , the Z(malaysia).Anyway we didnt talk much on msn which i believed he is going through some problems right now but i couldn't help as i don't have much experience.So , i guess i should leave him alone and have some personal time.Hope he is doing great and his birthday is on next week. Plan to meet him but we will see what happen.

Next is S.

S is staying in another state.S sent me a message on PR saying that he is impressed by what i wrote in my profile about love.He added me on MSN and we started to chat. He said he likes me and he started to call me baby.He said i m so perfect for him as he likes the way i think and i m all that he wanted in a man. He asked me to become his bf .But i didnt reject nor did i accept his offer.Because i dont know much about him.He called me on the phone and we talk almost for 2 hours.He told me he will take care of me , treat me right and just wanted to be my man.Anyway we never met yet as he comes to KL campus once a week and goes back again. I m not sure if i like him or not as i m started to immune to sweet words as i believed actions speak louder than words.We will see what happen next.

Next is a bunch of random guys between A to Z whom sent me messages on PR asking for sex and fun.I still replied them and rejected them nicely but some even scold me money boy and things like that.I laughed along as i think it was very funny.Until now they still send me messages like that and i m really getting tired of it.Do they have eyes to even read my profile that i m looking for someone i can love?Felt so bad bcos everything is about sex, sex and still sex. I guess it is really hard to find love in PLU community. But still , i will keep the faith and most importantly i dont judge the whole community just bcos of some guys.Fair enough rite?

So that was all for today.I will keep u guys updated to my current situation. And don't get me wrong,i treat them all as my friends until now.I don;t wanna be that rush as i learned from the past. Patience is very important.And i wont date more than a person at the same time as i think that is like choosing one of them and left the other one heart broken.Most importantly it is not very respectful. I will stick to my quote 'whatever it feels right'.Hope everything goes naturally and it's gonna happen when it is supposed to happen.

KEEP THE FAITH!

Lonely E.S.

PS: Want to feel what i feel at the moment? close your eyes andlisten to the song..feel the lyrics along..and maybe u will get a little of what i feel right now...thx